fine

 If I just followed the script, stayed on message, played the game, bought the ticket, signed up, made the team, saved my coupons and came in when I was supposed to,  everything would be just fine. Except that it wouldn't be fine. It s not fine and fine would never be enough.the insistent thumping in the back of my head and centre of my mind reminding me that it is all, really all, a load of utter bollocks and it is not fine.